A Rant on Children
Okay…so I do not understand.
Season 7 finale of Grey’s Anatomy. Yang and Hunt.
Yang just found out she’s six weeks pregnant. Hunt is trying to talk her into keeping it. Yang is completely, so adamantly against having a child, has been all 7 seasons. And here Hunt is trying to talk her into it…nay, GUILTING her into it by saying that if she loves and trusts him, then she’ll have the baby and they will raise it. But she doesn’t WANT the baby. NEVER has. And here she is telling him this, crying, saying she doesn’t want to be a mother, will be a bad mother, and wants to focus on her job.
So…why is she the bad guy?
Okay. She made an appointment to terminate the pregnancy, and she is apologizing. He is saying that this is a marriage and that “I am asking you to do something for me.” What the fuck? She is saying no, adamantly, against a life-changing decision, so immensely life-changing…and he is kicking her out. Because she “denied me a marriage”…wait, what? So, she’s not having the baby and that means he can’t love her anymore or be married to her anymore?
This makes me angry.
And maybe I shouldn’t be, maybe I should let this go. And stop being “stubborn” when it comes to children and not wanting to have them.
But do you know why I am so stubborn, why I have already made up my mind about this?
I’m sick of people telling me that I will change my mind, that I will “come around” and find some “maternal instinct” and crap like that. It just seems to me that this is the one decision in my life that people won’t leave me alone about. Like it’s my “duty” to have kids with a guy because I’d be his wife and because I’m female with the baby-making and carrying capacity.
I’m not a fucking machine. If someone else wants to have kids, fine, go ahead because that’s your decision and I respect that.
But it’s not mine, and no one can expect it to be, and I would really appreciate not being told that I am a bad person, a SELFISH person, for not wanting to have a kid.
What the flying fuck.
I love people, I do. I have the capacity to love. And yeah, I want to fall in love with a man and get married someday. So, does simply wanting to put all of my love into my husband make me a bad selfish person?
I don’t get it. I want to have pets, lots of pets, and a nice house that’s not in a city and a good job that I actually like and I want to be happy. I want to have the ability to say “let’s go away for the weekend” and not have to worry about the fact that I’ve got a 3 year old who cries all the time. I want to be able to live for years without having a teenager that hates my guts because I have rules. I don’t want to be a chauffeur, a cheerleader, a PTA person who has to interact with other parents. I just want to be me. Just me.
Maybe I’m so adamant and stubborn and easily upset about this because it was a big reason a relationship ended. Because I wasn’t “willing to sacrifice” for his dream to have a big family. Not that he gave a shit about my dreams at all, because he didn’t.
No, I don’t have a lot of “life experience.” And yeah, I’m ‘only’ 21 and still considered young and immature by a lot of people. So what. I don’t make up my mind about a lot of things in my life, but this is one thing I’m sure about. No matter what, I’m not giving birth to a child.
Not to mention that I want to be able to drink when I feel like it and continue to have copious amounts of caffeine in my system. :)
Okay, rant over. I have to clean now.
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